Maafin aku mom, dad. I'm disgusting. I'm gross. I'm perverted. I'm deranged. I never wanted to be like this. I wish I could be the good girl you always wanted. I'm so fucking useless. I can't do anything good for you. I'm just a puddle of unsalvageable sludge rotting in my bed. I can't cook for shit, can't even take care of myself, can't even break my disgustingly addictive habits, I can't do anything. At this point, you'd get more benefits to just throw me away on the streets. Yang ada, aku cuma jadi hama buat kalian. Yeah, that's right, I'm a godamn parasite to this family. Bringing nothing more than misery with every second I appear. I'm sorry that I'm such a useless child. I want you to hit me so hard that it leaves marks on my body. Leave me starving until I beg on my knees for forgiveness. Deprive me of my every source of happiness until I am a writhing, miserable creature on the floor. Please make me suffer